Last Cry

I don't want you back! I just miss the fact that you were always there. No matter how less I seemed to care. No matter how nonchalant I act, the fact of the matter is I loved you. I just didn't know how to show you. I could tell you all day, just didn't know how to express the way. So instead I pushed to away. I guess I did it in fear of being hurt. But now I feel like a jerk. While these feelings continue to lurk and remind me of what was. How does this continue to happen? Just when I'm coming out, I fall back in. Back into this fear of rejection. When will I learn my lesson? When will I give love a chance? Maybe I'll continue to struggle with this issue while I go through another box of tissue. -L' Mo